I’m Not Sure What I Am

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How many of you read last week’s blog and felt anxious? How many of us eagerly got out our post-it notes and wrote down all of the wonderful things that we are and sat back and thought, “yep, I am all that and a bag of chips!”

That’s what I thought!

A month before G even wrote the blog I loved the idea. When she wrote it, I loved it. Then I sat down to actually do the exercise and realized I am not as self-aware and self-compassionate as I had hoped I was. Now the point of the blog was not to bash ourselves or feel less than. It was and is a blog about standing boldly in the truth of who we are right now. Why is this so difficult? Why can we create a long list of things that are true and wonderful about the person sitting next to us, but when we have to look in the mirror we struggle? Why is it that we so often have to preface our strengths with a weakness? It’s like we have to counterbalance what is good by detracting from who we are. Why when someone says, “wow, I can’t believe you guys ran 50 miles”, I have to say, “yes, I can endure, but I am incredibly slow.” Why must I do that? Why can’t I embrace the fact that one of my strengths and absolute positives is that I know how to endure or that I am mentally and physically strong?

I think it’s fear. Fear that if we accept who we are that we will somehow fall short and be seen as a fraud. Well, guess what? We are going to fall short sometimes and we are going to fail, but that is what connects us all. We are all human and therefore, flawed.

So, this week let’s get out those post-it notes again and think about what we do each day and week. Maybe you run a household, a business, a family. What must you be if you do these things? Organized? Patient? Creative? Caring? Loving? I could literally type 50 words in this space. Let’s start here with what we do and find that path to who we are. My guess is that as you continue down this path you may start to give yourself a little grace which lo and behold will lead to self-compassion.

Oh and just to get you started on the right foot, you obviously have a good sense of humor and are kind-hearted because you read this blog!

Sunshine & Sarcasm,

Lowi

4 Comments Add yours

  1. gretzmom says:

    and once again, i thought it was just me….

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    1. G (of Lowi & G) says:

      Certainly not just you 🙂 I really struggled after writing the blog to go through the exercise myself. I think, like Lowi said, we always feel the need to downplay our strengths, accomplishments. Many of us, myself included, have a tendency to “play small” and while we know that doesn’t serve us, or anyone, it’s a tough habit to break. I am hoping that keeping that board around and looking at it throughout the week will remind me that there are some things that I am “pretty OK at.” See I still need work. G

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  2. Helene Simon says:

    I struggle with this all the time. When someone compliments my accomplishments, I always downplay it. Why? My explanation is that I’m embarrassed, but why? I’m working on just responding with a simple “thank you”.

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    1. G (of Lowi & G) says:

      It seems we are all a work in progress 🙂

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