She made a not-so-quiet gasp and pretended to choke on something. As she left the room I kept thinking about 30 years. It’s normal during times of transition or major milestones to take stock of your life. I sat down at the table and began thinking about the last 30 years; where I’ve been, where I am and where I am going in the future. The where I’ve been part was pretty good. The where I am now part started to cause my heart to beat a little faster and the where I am going part? If I am honest, I got up and walked away. I needed to put this conversation that was happening in my head on the shelf. Procrastination is a symptom of fear, but it can also be the life raft we need to float on for a bit on until we can deal with what is before us.
Our youngest is home for another two years and then she graduates high school. Our lives are changing at a rapid pace. Our daughter just got her driver’s license and I already am not needed nearly as much. While I will always be a mom, my role is definitely changing and I have more time on my hands.
I don’t have anymore answers than when I started this little mind game, but that’s what coaching, hiking, running, working out, reading, writing, vacationing and talking to my friends is for; figuring things out. My hubby is going to like this non-procrastinating version of myself way better than where I have been lately.
Sunshine & Sarcasm,
Lowi & G