Most months, G and I try to come up with a theme.  It helps us to gain focus when trying to write blogs and find quotes for the week.  Other months, we accidentally stumble upon something and we look back and think, “huh, I guess we must have needed that.”

As I sat down to write yesterday, I looked back over the last week.  Since last Friday we have written about self-worth, going for it, choosing joy, and what-iffing the amazing things that could happen in our lives if we open ourselves up to the possibilities.  I don’t think it’s an accident that at least one of these blogs has struck a chord with you.  While we are all in different places in our lives, we all want to live out the best version of ourselves. Some of us are trying to dig deep this week to find ways to move forward in at least one of these areas.

So, I decided to take stock of where I am THIS WEEK  because let’s face it, it fluctuates. I started with my self -worth.  My worthiness meter is doing pretty well.  I’m 48, I don’t spend much time stressing about what others might think of me or comparing myself to others.  Okay, sometimes when we hit bathing suit season I compare myself to others, but I try not to spend much time there.  Also, I don’t let my cellulite, spare tire or cankles dictate how I feel about myself anymore.  My body has gotten me pretty far in this life and I really don’t want to spend my next 50 years stressing about the size of my jeans.  Yes, I think about it, but again it doesn’t rule my world.  All that being said, I want to take care of myself, which leads me to our next topic of “going for it.”

For me, “going for it” right now looks like an exercise/healthy eating program and I am currently on week 2 of a plan that is kicking my booty. Without sounding like I am making comparisons or complaining, I am definitely not 25 anymore.  To be clear, I don’t want to be 25, but it would be nice to not feel every single one of my 48 years when I wake up each morning.  I know it will pass, but it’s day 11 and I am exhausted, cranky and sore really doesn’t seem to cover it.  I keep telling myself that if I keep going I will never have to feel like this again.  I just don’t know when this phase is going to pass.  I mean, my elbow hurts.  Why does my elbow hurt?  Here’s the deal though.  I decided that I needed to get it together and find a plan that works.  Not a diet.  Not a quick fix, but a healthy lifestyle that I can sustain.  I made a commitment and everyday I wake up and choose AGAIN to follow through with that commitment.  Today, I walked the dogs in the wind, rain, and snow for 3 miles and when I got home I knew I still had to do my cardio.  I didn’t want to do it, but I made a commitment to myself and I followed through.  It was hard and I wanted to quit, but I didn’t and when I finished I was thankful to be done.  Tonight, a mere 12 hours after I got out of bed, I really just want to go back to sleep. Nobody said this whole “going for it” thing was easy.

Besides choosing to workout I am also trying to choose happiness.  Sometimes this is a problem because I live with other people and other people talk to me during the day.  These people are not always happy.  I like to think of myself as a generally happy person, but for those reading this who might think otherwise, I’ll just say I am a work in progress.

Now for the fun stuff.  The “what-ifing” the amazing possibilities that could happen at any moment.  I don’t know that I often think about the AMAZING possibilities that could happen, but I don’t dwell on the bad “what ifs” either so that’s good, right?  Like I said, I am a work in progress.

This weekend I am going to reflect on these things:

What might your weekend look like if you focus on these four things for the next few days?