January is the typical time where we all start fresh and begin our lives anew. August, though is the month for transition. School supplies are being purchased, kids are going back to school, and our older kids are going off to college or into the real world. It’s a time of big changes for many.
Tomorrow, I will be leaving Nashville and heading back home. I have mixed feelings. On one hand I have done this before and survived. We took our oldest to college two years ago and that was a difficult goodbye. Not because she was far away, but because it’s a milestone moment. It marks a time when things begin to change. Our kids are not our little kids anymore. Yes, they still ask for advice and in most cases are still receiving financial support, but it’s never the same after they’ve moved out. In fact, I am pretty sure our oldest prefers to be in Boulder with her friends and in her apartment over being with the family. That is what is supposed to happen and I believe the mark by which we measure if we have done our job. We want them to be strong and independent adults. Right?
While we were on our vacation the last couple of weeks I kept watching our three daughters paddle board and swim in the ocean together. It was bittersweet because I kept thinking that this might be the last time we get to do this as a family. Sure, we might all vacation together again, but the dynamics will be different. I kept getting choked up thinking about it. I kept seeing them as little girls at the beach building sand castles and trying to knock one another off the boogie board.
So, as I prepare to head home and say goodbye to our middle daughter I am prepping myself once again for the onslaught of emotions. Have I taught her everything she needs to know to live on her own? Have I reminded her at least 20 times of the really important things: Her morals and values, safety and boys? I’d really like to stay and make sure she has a job, a church, a schedule, a group of friends and…so much more. But, she is young, independent, stubborn and believes she can do anything…and she can.
“Do not go where the path may lead; go instead where there is no path and leave a trail.”
– Ralph Waldo Emerson
Sunshine & Sarcasm,
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