(L) I feel like my weekly torture report has become a report of attempts at discipline and my list of failures. It has been a tough six months in terms of discipline for me. I know it’s a lack of discipline because if I really wanted to train or accomplish something I would find the time to fit it in. After all, I find time to fit the rest of the craziness in my life.
I was in the mountains this past weekend and it always help me to gain some perspective. What I realized at 2am on Sunday morning as I was assisting my 13-year-old who was vomiting and my phone was ringing with my middle daughter calling because the dog was going crazy at the door and she was home alone, was that I need to reclaim my life. Yes, I want to be there for the head-holding and the early morning phone calls, but I need to set aside time for me again. I have let life take me on a ride this year, but I have been in the passenger seat a lot. I need to get back into the driver’s seat and navigate my own life.
I am not going to list all of the things that I want to accomplish this summer and then report back my inconsistent attempts at success. Rather I am going to just check in each week with my progress. Isn’t that what we are trying to do with life anyway? Evolve? Progress? I have some thoughts about what it’s going to look like and our 100 days of happiness is a great time to be working on myself anyway.
So, thank you for your patience as I work through my life.
(G) I am really glad I wrote my report before I read Lowi’s. Otherwise, I’d have all this guilt about being self-centered, not taking 2 am calls and not holding anyone’s head while they get sick.
Don’t get me wrong, I still feel all those things it’s just NOT additionally contributing to writer’s block. Alas, here is my report before the self-loathing began. 🙂
It turns out I am a high-maintenance runner. I tend to want/expect and essentially require a few things when out for a long run: water, food and “facilities” of some kind. Saturday, during an extensive tour of Delaware State Park we were instead working with Rations, Roots and Restrooms (closed restrooms to be exact). I have now begun to refer to this state of affairs as the Three Rs. Unlike in educational processes of old, these are more like the seven deadly sins cause if you don’t have water, food or a place of some sort to go “potty” things get dicey — FAST!
I believe, strongly, that if I were intended to pee in the woods I would’ve been born prior to indoor plumbing. But I was not so, therefore, when the park is open on May 30, school is out and it’s 85 $%^ degrees I think it’s reasonable to expect that already constructed bathrooms, whatever their deplorable state, and drinking fountains should be open and working. Am I right?
I spent a fare amount of time grousing about these issues but eventually acceptance arrives.
The benefit of adversity is that it always delivers what it intended. It was an opportunity to:
* learn patience as I was being eaten alive by mosquitoes;
* restraint when I drank only as much water as I absolutely needed at one time,
* practice balance and stability after I tripped mightily on a tree root that sent me lunging forward awkwardly for several steps;
* embrace fear as a snake and I stumbled upon each other and I screamed and jumped higher than I likely ever have before;
* know when enough is enough. As I set out to hit 20 miles but when we returned to the car at approximately 16-17 miles (GPS is a little wonky these days) I knew it was plenty.
There were lots of other uneventful running days and I have been faithfully partaking in acupuncture and Muscle Activation Technique therapy and the left hip is feeling much better. See what happens when you stop ignoring pain. I am a slow learner.
Challenges Are Back
It’s June and really what else are you going to do except… a fitness challenge? In this case, I can’t really decide so I am doing one-half of two. Don’t try to understand the rationale because it’s a mystery even to me. But they collectively include all kinds of lunges, squats and some abdominal work. I’ll keep you posted.
Saturday, I am returning to the place where all this ultra craziness began for me and, frankly, where it almost ended. We are running Another Dam 50K in Englewood, Ohio. It took me three tries (and some tears) before I finally completed all 31 miles. It was a real monkey on my back for quite some time but once I learned that no matter how hard you train it’s going to “hurt” things got a whole lot easier (well.. you know). We have another event coming up in a few weeks but we figured if we were going to go out and run long we may as well be with friends and let people feed us!! For $15 and hours of fun, how can you go wrong? Plus, now this race feels like coming home.
Sunshine & Sarcasm,
Lowi & G
The Torture Report began in January 2014 as a weekly update of our journey to completing a 50-mile race. Since then it’s continued on to become a chronicle of how we try mightily to find fitness, health and sometimes the finish line. We aren’t always successful but we keep showing up and telling you all about it on Tuesdays.